Winged Awakening

Winged Awakening

My latest painting… finally after a long creativue dry spell. At first i did not know what to call it. Alot of deep feeling went into this painting. The vision started as a drawing that was done in a moment of profound sadness. Not just sad for little me, but for the suffering of and by humanity, for the loving Spirit residing in the heart of every human, that is so often trapped and suffocated. For the precious planet we live within, its spectacular, magical wild places and inhabitants that come under threat by said humans. And all of a sudden, one of the bright Angels that came in to my previous drawing of my recovering hand and wrist… came to the crying eye. As the image began as a painting, the sadness vanished… and only an uplifting sensation came over me. I felt support, healing and sweetness… Also i felt a waking within… veils dissolving…. wings lifting…. lightness… a profound prayer. A friend wrote the words: “…as if the tears are the seeds that give bearth to the awakening ready winged awakening”  Share on...

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… after a long period of hand/wrist injury and recovery

… after a long period of hand/wrist injury and recovery

…. here is my first attempt at drawing after a wrist fracture and over three months of healing… i am relieved to see that my art hand will regain its motor abilities! And i feel my Muse coming in closer after a period of creative doldrums. All part of the Journey….  Share on...

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I warmly welcome you to my remodeled website. And my blog.

Welcome to my re designed website! And Blog! We are still working on it…so there may be some glitches. I haven’t had much to say in my Blog for awhile. Now is the beginning of a new year, symbolic of a fresh new unwritten page. i chose this pic of myself to share because i saw two visions in it. It is a selfie i was taking playing with light…. but i also see some curious figures of light reflected in my glasses, and i have no idea what they are! I took it with my Ipad, so no flashes from there. ! So these reflections represent the mystery to me… and the rainbow lights shining through me, represent my intention to take on more spiritual Light as i meet life. So that is where i am… i face the mystery, wondering what it has for me. The empty canvas. I have been painting portraits of my family. ( it is requested that i don’t publish them ) Aside from that, what my own art vision will be, is the mystery. i have learned to love the not knowing. At this stage i find the NOT knowing far more brilliant than the “knowing”. The emptiness of it allows the new to manifest more unimpeded by me. I wonder…  Share on...

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Dissolving Becoming, the Alchemy of Transformation

Dissolving Becoming, the Alchemy of Transformation

I have been away from my art for 3 or 4 months. There was simply no wind in my sails. Then this one came thundering through: I have experienced the “dissolving/becoming”. It was terrible/wonderous! I lost myself. I fell. To lose ones self, to me, must be a form of Grace, where something profound happens that we could not do ourselves>> to un-do us… to disillusion and dissolve us. Our sense of identity ( ego mind ) is mostly false and must unravel, incinerate, because it is made up of inner lies and projections and delusions… ie. not based in Reality. Asleep. This to me is a magical occurance, while at the same time… it can feel like a death by a thousand cuts, if we resist. It is a fundamental element of True transformation… if we allow it. If we resist or attempt to control…. we will experience suffering… and maybe get stuck in it. It is much like the caterpillar in the cocoon… the juices of transformation dissolves the worm and at the same time the butterfly is forming… and it will FLY!! Mysterious and and brilliant is this process. We have only to be humbly un-attached to any outcomes of any stories… and surrender to it. Trust. The rest takes care of itself, once we get out of our own way.  Share on...

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further morphing…

further morphing…

It has been a long time since i published the previous morphs of this painting…. “life” has taken me out of my art studio for some weeks, but now i am back. So here is morph #4 I have nothing to say yet about this painting…. yet.    Share on...

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Morphing Odalisque in process

Morphing Odalisque in process

I have been away from my blog for awhile… but now i am back, with my newest art project, and my first 3 morphs…. as the painting develops. I have been eying an unfinished painting that i have had stored in my studio for about 7 years. It was inspired by La Grande Odalisque – by Ingres… but a friend posed for it… and i did not intend to copy Ingres’ painting, but to do my own odalisque in a similar pose. Finally i decided to dust it off… lay out my luscious oils, and play with it, and see what happens. I am enjoying it so far, and am very curious about where it will go from here…. it is very unfinished, and the hands and feet, and some anatomy are especially in a primitive level of development… but here i have the first 3 morphs. And i will post more as i go. This is morph number 2: This is number 3:    Share on...

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Intuitive Splash

Intuitive Splash

Intuitive Splash – now finished.  Acrylic and oils on canvas… 27 1/2″ x 47″ ( 70 x 120 cmts).           This piece was painted with no purpose other than to spontaneously dance with color and texture and feeling…nothing representational that the mind can grab onto…unless it is from the imagination of the viewer, which is eagerly invited. Mainly the senses  experience it….there is no message or purpose beyond that simple thing….the experience itself, what ever that may be.  Art…is a wide open field of discoveries…both in the creating of it, and the perceiving of it. After my many years as a such a controlled and perfectionist painter….this is totally new territory for me. ( one i have been playing with for many months now, as posted in this blog, each a different experience and flavor…and for me, a delight every one, for reasons my ‘mind’ cannot explain. ) Like i have been set free of the mental control part …to just allow something to intuitively occur out of movement and feeling playful and inspired to be attempting such a courageous (for me) thing, and joyful when certain surprises occur as the painting unfolds! The abandon…the out-of-mind field…eyes wide open….with some paint and brushes in hand….here we go on a ride to the unknown. My love for the unknown continues to expand….not just in my art. close up…Intuitive Splash:      Share on...

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Splash play….out of my mind!

Splash play….out of my mind!

*1. First installment…january 7 OK…here i go again beginning a painting with no thought…just playing in movement and colors bouncing about in  splashes…. It is a time of breaking out and expanding beyond old ‘boxes’ (both personally and artistically)… allowing new movement without judgement. A journey into the unknown…i am becoming quite the friend of the unknown. The known has become stale…it is past and it is done….todays moments are not carrying nearly as much of the past as before. I am experiencing a fresh air of mystery in this cleaner perspective! I have always been drawn to the magic inherent in the mysterious…and now feel lighter and thus more capable and trusting to take this leap. *2. Jan 8..the next day of a joyful and delightfully meaningless dance of color and texture with oils: I feel like i want to dive into this painting and play with the colors where it calls me. Very in the present moment….empty of mental….to see where it takes me…i have zero attachment to where it goes!!! I love this feeling…very free…breathing life…awake to this moment… This spontaneous approach to my art is reflective of what is happening to me within. A sense of surrender and trust….and a curiousity as to what the universe has for me…a new openness to receive it…(and a gratefulness to be relieved of so much of the weight i used to carry inside.)      Share on...

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“Speechless”

“Speechless”

  Here is the finished painting…”Speechless.” (click image to enlarge) The title arrived in a magical way. Every title idea that came to me felt just wrong altogether…until i remembered that what happens in this vision has no mental definition at all…. The mind is not the tool to ‘See’ ( grok ) this painting….to explore the rich realms beyond mind…so lovely…playful…free… (detail) A pure spontaneous experience can be spoiled or limited (put in a box) when the mind is put to task to define it. But then, sometimes the word used can be a kind of bridge or trigger…and can deepen the meaning of an experience. This title does both… for me. (detail) This image feels auspicious….to me….almost like a blessing. **As a side note: My website and blog are a year old now, and during this time my art has been changing, along with me….and i would love to hear (read) from those who are visiting, so i know who you are! A small comment would be very welcomed to begin this new year.  Share on...

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